A story only God could write.

  • “God didn’t abandon me in the dark. He lit the path, one painful step at a time.”

    -Nicole M. Anderson, Why Not Me?

  • “Obedience didn’t guarantee ease, but it opened every door we were meant to walk through.”

    - Nicole M. Anderson, Why Not Me?

  • “Grief taught me what strength never could: how to lean.”

    - Nicole M. Anderson, Why Not Me?

  • “I packed up my life, my children, and my grief—and trusted the one and only God I could barely hear to get us across the country.”

    - Nicole M. Anderson, Why Not Me?

Why Not Me? Interactive Map

Explore our cross-country journey through this interactive map. Each point on the map represents a meaningful stop along the way, and when you click on it, you’ll see photos capturing our experiences at that exact moment in the journey. From quiet reflections to big milestones, these snapshots bring the story of Why Not Me? to life—allowing you to travel the road with us, one stop at a time.

Purchase Why Not Me?

Why Not Me? is not only a story—it is my very first book, born out of one of the most painful and transformative seasons of my life. After losing my husband without warning, I found myself navigating the depths of grief while raising seven children on my own and stepping into the unknown with nothing but faith to guide me.

In these pages, I share openly and honestly about heartbreak, hope, and the quiet courage it takes to follow God when nothing makes sense. This book is my testimony of how obedience opened doors I never expected, how healing came in places I didn’t imagine, and how purpose rose from the ashes of my pain.

Writing Why Not Me? has been more than an accomplishment—it has been part of my healing. It is my prayer that as you read, you will be reminded that even in your darkest valley, you are never truly alone.

Ministry Impact & Speaking

Why Not Me? is a tool for healing. Nicole shares a faith-forward message on grief, obedience, and hope that meets people where they are and points them toward Jesus.

Outcomes:

  • Renewed hope for those walking through loss or transition

  • Practical care rhythms for churches & ministry teams (meal trains, follow-up, prayer)

  • A fresh call to obedience—trusting God when the next step feels impossible

Signature Topics:

  • Grief to Grace: caring for the hurting without clichés

  • When God Says “Go”: obedience in uncertainty

  • Building a C.A.R.E.S. Culture: practical systems for congregational care

Formats:

  • Keynote/Testimony: 30–45 min

  • Workshop: 60–120 min with Q&A and guided prayer

  • Panel or Book Q&A + signing

Ideal for: Sunday services • Women’s events • Grief support nights • Leadership retreats • Book clubs

Joshua’s Why Not Me? Knit T-shirt

Graphic T-shirt with a pixelated image of a woman smiling, wearing a headscarf, with Bible verse references and text on the sleeves.

  • Wear your faith and purpose on your sleeve—literally. Featuring “WNM? Isaiah 6:8” on the front, the Tailormade Productions logo on the shoulder, and a bold “WHY NOT ME?” road design on the back, this soft knit tee is a stylish reminder to answer God’s call: “Here am I. Send me.” This color scheme was designed by my son Joshua.

  • A classic t-shirt that fits well for both Men & Women.

    • 55% cotton, 45% polyester

    • Lightweight and very soft material

    • Classic fit with unisex sizing

    • 4-color jacquard knit

Join the journey!

Join the journey!

 

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Frequently Asked Questions

Do you offer signed copies?
Yes—choose “Signed Copy” at checkout. You can add a short dedication at purchase.
How long is shipping?
Most U.S. orders ship in 3–7 business days. You’ll receive tracking by email.
Do you ship internationally?
Yes—rates are calculated at checkout. Delivery times vary by country.
Is there bulk pricing for churches/groups?
Absolutely—discounts start at 10+ copies. For bulk orders, please use the Connect form button below.
Is there an audiobook?
Audiobook is planned. Join the list above to be notified when it’s released.
What age range is the book for?
Teens through adults. It’s honest about grief but written with sensitivity and hope.
I’m grieving—will this be triggering?
Grief is tender and everyone’s journey is different. Please read at your own pace, and stay connected to a trusted community (friends, church, small group, or a counselor) you can talk with as you walk through this season.
Can Nicole speak at our church or event?
Yes—please use the Connect form button below to inquire about booking and topics.
Where can I buy the book?
Direct from Nicole (signed), Amazon, or bulk orders. For purchase details or help, please use the Connect form button below.